A few years ago my mom went to see a “medium”… – it wasn’t like that medium on tv, but still, she knew a lot by just looking into your eyes… creepy – at that time me and my twin sister were fightning really bad and that’s why my mom went to see this lady… I remember one day she came home and told us that the major problem between us was because we have different types of personalities, my sister was an extrovert and I’m an introvert. I didn’t think much of it because I was a really angry and stubborn teenager that wasn’t gonna take the time to look for something, I thought, my mom invented just so we could get along. That was almost 10 years ago – I’m so old – … Along those years I realise my mom was right… there are types of personalities and I’m in fact part of the 30% of human population that’s an introvert, that means I get energy by being alone, and being around people drains all of my energy. And that could be a problem sometimes, cause we live in a world were being outgoing and people loving is something really really important. Since a young age I was convinced that I had to like going out… And don’t get me wrong, I love going out in small groups of people but big crowds is just too exhausting for me, having to do small talk is a real problem for me and talking about myself kills me. I love hearing about what other people have to say before I can say something, people who ask really interesting questions are the best and if they show interest in what I’m saying I’ll go on and on and on… Meeting new people is frustrating because I don’t wanna waste time in someone who just don’t deserve it and it’s exhausting. I love to write, it’s my favourite way of communication, I can think as much as I want before sending it, that’s a plus I really like. We are the biggest thinkers, we don’t talk before we think every word we’re about to say, that comes in handy when I try to not hurt people with my words but sometimes thinking too much something gets frustrating for the other person you’re talking to. It’s hard to be an introvert but I wouldn’t change it if I could. We see the world different than others, we see details that no one notices, we won’t go to someone with our problems before really thinking through it ourself, and let’s be honest, no one knows you better than yourself for solving problems.
Before I knew all of this I thought I was broken… Why everyone I know likes small talk?, why no one likes to go home after being out all day?, I like being alone, does that mean I’m gonna die alone?, and the worst one: should I change myself to being more outgoing?. I’m not gonna lie, I tried to change myself but it obviously didn’t work because it’s not something I can change, it’s in my brain… Maybe electroshock mmmm… Nah, as of right now I wouldn’t even consider it, I learned that the way I am it’s ok and I shouldn’t let anyone to tell me otherwise. I’m different, but I can do anything and I try my best not to let this keep me from living and enjoy life.